Today was a big fucking wake up call for me. Its time to step everything up. I hate this feeling. This feeling of being a total fuck up. I’m better then this and i know it. It’s time for me to be the wrestler that I am and get shit back on track. I hate this feeling. That feeling where you felt like you could’ve done so much more to change the situation, but didn’t. Fuck! It’s not how many loses or wins that defines who a wrestler is, it’s their ability to get back up and work hard after a loss. That’s what I need to do starting tomorrow and get ready for this tournament in Hollister.